This Old World

My mom always says it's a great life if you don't weaken.. so who's weakening. Well the last 48 hours I have felt like weakening. I love my family so deep. I can never tell you how much they mean to me. My dear sister is really going through it and just needs to get away from life. I wish I was able to fill the gap and let her go. So I guess I must just deal with it like normal and keep going on.. No need in just sitting down and giving up.. SO Jesus hold my hand and help me through thfelis weary land..

Life is SO hard

I go to bed and things seem to be OK. Wake up get some thing done and then get a call that my mom has had a stroke. I just fall apart. What is going on. How can I face one more thing. I just need a break from this mess. I have sat and cried all day. I want to be closer to my family. 1100 miles is a LONG way when something bd happens. Makes me crazy and I want it all to stop..

Have learned that mom is doing ok but has some internal bleeding that they are working to find out what is going on. For me I just need the call that everything is going to be OK and that she will be home soon.

I am so thankful I have somewhere to just write and to make mental notes of how I feel. Have a great day

Going Debt free

We are working at getting out of debt. Looks like about 2 more yrs and we will be debit free. Somedays I just want to be in debt when I see something I think we really need. Then I take that time to sleep on it and find out it was more something I wanted then anything. Funny how I hear Dave Ramsey in my head saying step away from the product..LOL Oh well. In 2 yrs we will be screaming and be so excited to just be free.. I hope when this is behind us to never be in debt again..

Now to see the ones we love get out of debt and to be free to change there family tree.
Until next time...

My Heart Hurts

Well it has been 2 weeks since Randy passed away. Seems like yesterday that I got that call. I do ok for the most part but then I think of my sister and she is alone with 3 kids and it just breaks my heart and I fall apart. Why take a man that loves his wife and family and a hard worker? What is the purpose? How do you step in and help? What is next for this family? So many questions with no answers. I guess death is something you have to work through and on the other end you are stronger. Well I would rather have kept Randy here.. Would rather see my sister smiling and happy. I know it will come again, in time. Life it sure is hard.

Be blessed today..

Our First post

We are stepping into the world of Blogging. I am not sure if this is exciting or scary. I have read many blogs and have enjoyed them. People being real and just sharing what they feel. We dont see that very often any more. BUT time to get back to the basics.

Well I must now get on to creating the rest of this site.